nurgh. feel so nuaa.. dont have the mood for school and all. just wanna lie on my bed and sleep my life away... waste it away.
im pretty sick of school these few weeks.. even though im used to waking up early everyday (secondary school??), there's just something that just makes me feel tired. i dont know if it's the routine of it all- which i dont think so, cause it's the same back in secondary school. or maybe it's just cause the feeling of yet another day gone by like that's pretty scary.
or maybe it's just cause ive been going out almost every other day that it doesnt seem that ive had any proper rest (even though i slept 3 days away) and doesnt make me feel rejuvenated.
i like the quiet me where i can just feel content listening to corrine may's songs. or those slow quiet songs. without feeling antsy. that im missing out on something by listening to something so slow. like the world's revolving faster than me, and by listening to such songs i would miss out on something vital. lol.
something that sep's been asking these few days is what's my hobby when i was young. truth is i dont think i ever had a hobby. i had stamp collection- but i didnt really see the point when one's buying those kinda board w all the stamps there, instead of searching for unique ones and all that crap.
shell collection. it was just pretty troublesome to go down to the beach (i almost typed bitch. wow) and look for nice sea shells. sure it's cool when you find nice, pretty ones. but then, once it's dried, what do you do with it? put in one corner on display? string them up to make sea shell necklace?? nope. no space and no such talent. so. yeah.
sports. i did wu shu... but it doesnt feel like ive learnt much from it, if you want to talk about things like self defence techniques cause i kinda react with my instincts. it just keeps me healthy. lol.
i did swimming as well.. but since there aint no swimming pools nearby, i dont swim as often as i would like to. lol. i think if i live in a condo, i would just lie by the pool and rot my brains away half the time. lol. or maybe if i live near the sea, i would just go there and stone at the waves. but then and again, singapore beaches are so fugly -_-" so i might not do that. hahas. but i would definitely sit and rot by the pool if given a chance.. heheh.
other than that.. i learnt chinese dance till i was in primary4? in fact, i stopped going to alot of activities once i shifted house in the later part of the year in primary 4. probably cause it's less accessible. but then, one can argue that if you truly have the passion for something, you would travel over mountain and sea just to attend the class or what. so one can say that i just dont really have the interest in it. hahs.
hmm.. i cant remember all the other weird activities i had as a kid, but that's about it..
and the funny thing is that i dont have a hobby. or something that i have an unquenchable interest in.
laadidum.
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